There is No Time! Really?

I have been missing my meditation sessions for more than two weeks

Last night I could not sleep!

I was struggling.
Tossing and turning for an hour!
I finally decided to meditate for 20 minutes
And then instantly fell asleep

That’s when I realized that the reason why my to-do list for last week was complete wreckage…

Because I’ve been missing my meditation sessions for so long

So… my final thoughts before going to bed

No matter what time I get up at the first thing that I’m gonna do is meditate for 20 minutes

This morning it was noisy around, and I was forced awake.
Earlier than I had planned, groggy and tired!

I spent 40 minutes watching videos on YouTube

Just as I was ready to get out of bed I thought

It’s already late, let’s quickly rush to breakfast

And that’s when I remembered last night’s resolution

Whatever happened to meditating or working out?

Why is it that
I can watch videos for 40 minutes without a worry but can’t find 20 minutes to meditate?

I can spend a lot of time writing this article. But… can’t find 20 minutes to meditate

I start thinking

It’s already too late!
There is no time!
This is urgent let’s finish this first!

Of course, I never finish something and get to my meditation because once I start doing something else it triggers the chain of events in ‘my day’.

What’s really happening here is…

Meditation is just hard for me…

And as discussed the brain is really efficient and creative when it comes to finding ways to avoid difficult stuff at all costs

Once I know what’s really happening,
I at least know that ‘no time’ is just an excuse!

One that henceforth I will be ashamed to hide behind!

I still haven’t found a framework to make it work!

But… I have another realization!

Track, monitor, watch yourself and you’ll see that the brain is a fucked up machine