I have been missing my meditation sessions for more than two weeks
Last night I could not sleep!
I was struggling.
Tossing and turning for an hour!
I finally decided to meditate for 20 minutes
And then instantly fell asleep
That’s when I realized that the reason why my to-do list for last week was complete wreckage…
Because I’ve been missing my meditation sessions for so long
So… my final thoughts before going to bed
No matter what time I get up at the first thing that I’m gonna do is meditate for 20 minutes
This morning it was noisy around, and I was forced awake.
Earlier than I had planned, groggy and tired!
I spent 40 minutes watching videos on YouTube
Just as I was ready to get out of bed I thought
It’s already late, let’s quickly rush to breakfast
And that’s when I remembered last night’s resolution
Whatever happened to meditating or working out?
Why is it that
I can watch videos for 40 minutes without a worry but can’t find 20 minutes to meditate?
I can spend a lot of time writing this article. But… can’t find 20 minutes to meditate
I start thinking
It’s already too late!
There is no time!
This is urgent let’s finish this first!
Of course, I never finish something and get to my meditation because once I start doing something else it triggers the chain of events in ‘my day’.
What’s really happening here is…
Meditation is just hard for me…
Once I know what’s really happening,
I at least know that ‘no time’ is just an excuse!
One that henceforth I will be ashamed to hide behind!
I still haven’t found a framework to make it work!
But… I have another realization!
Track, monitor, watch yourself and you’ll see that the brain is a fucked up machine