From 19th Oct:
For the last 40 odd days are been working with a coach.
Making to-do lists and checking things off the list.
Sure! there was progress…
Things that were getting done
I was missing something…!
A sense of a bigger purpose
I’d started wondering – What’s the point?
One of the best nights of my life happened
A whole list of 25 ‘blog post’ ideas happened.
5 new blogs happened!
A complete change in the way I approach ideas happened.
And… a lot of these small changes happened.
That made me think…
Maybe I really have changed!
Hopefully for good.
This is definitely positive AF!
I can only imagine…
For the first time in my life, I am so happy being right where I am that I don’t even care about where I am going!
I remember… It used to be the opposite.
I’d dream up about where I wanna go!
I’d imagine being already there.
And then… NOTHING!
I wouldn’t do anything, or execute any plans to actually get there!
This transformative night reminded me of a scene and Akshay Kumar movie ‘Chandni Chowk to China‘
Akki’s brother is murdered.
So he must learn kung fu to defeat the killer and get his revenge.
But instead of teaching him, his master gets him to roll his arms on a log of wood for days on end!
After about 4 weeks, his patience runs out and he rebels – “Fuck this log! I am here to learn kung fu and kill Hojo”
When the tantrums go out of control the master angrily throws a massive table at Akki.
Which hits his forearms and shatters!
Turns out he was learning kung-fu all along!
Akki only knew the end result ‘a kung fu master’.
But not the process – How to actually become one…
When we don’t know how things actually work, and we are hyper-focused on the result, it’s really hard to believe that it’ll work out.
It’s difficult to just trust the process and follow a teacher’s regime.
That is until we’ve had our first transformative Chandni Chowk to China moment!