It’s difficult, my thoughts are not in my control, I am feeling miserable
These are just and totally baseless and they are just thoughts. They don’t have any practical ability to affect my capability or sharpness! Until I give them permission to. For example – I can keep thinking and overthinking about them but as soon as I have some important work I dismiss these thoughts and get to work. Immediately after finishing I go back to self-destruction.
The trick is to understand that in reality, they are completely inconsequential no matter what it feels like.
The moment I know that in my bones, then I am not using distraction to run from my problems, instead I am starving my made-up problems of attention…
It’s easy to see when others are doing it
But what about me?
Am I not doing the same?
Creating problems in my head, and then feeding them my full attention, making them real, and then carrying their burden?
Choose I must
Any thought can come and go
But attention is the food it needs to grow
And chose I must what thought I feed
Compassion and joy, or fear and greed